quod me nutrit, me destruit
sometimes u feel that u've missed something very important in ur life.
sometimes u blame urself for being safe, for being far from the place u should be at those particular moment.
u just sit down and open the cover of ur piano. and sob violently.
u could change nothing. u could buy flowers, candles, u could cry in the church
bcoz of these 12 victims. the candle wax will burn ur fingers, tears will burn ur cheeks.
but it won't help. nothing will help to calm down
the only thought -
if i was there, i could make something good in this life
if i was there, i could join my heart to this pain.
such an awful thing. to watch the death through ur PC screen and do nothing.
do
nothing
do nothing
just feel that ur broken heart starts to move again...


@музыка: regina spector - apres moi